Wednesday, July 26, 2006

L-O-V-E

Many kisses and hugs to ya'll who dropped by/emailed me in support for all the craziness that has consumed my family. I appreciate it, and I'm sorry I never sent you any replies to your comments. To say my head has not been on straight would be a gross understatement. My niece is going to be ok, they thought at the scene of the accident her neck and spine were broken, but she is ok. My sister-in-law (who is separated from my brother) lives in CO and met my mom at the state line to pick the girls up. They had been with my mom for the month in AZ and a week with me. On her way back to Denver, she hit some water and hydroplaned into a guardrail and flipped her car. My 3 year old niece was behind her on the drivers side and was fine, but the 5 year old was on the other side of the car, and that was the side that ended up smashed into the ground after flipping and rolling. Needless to say, it scared the holy crap out of us. But they are all ok, just banged up and the car is a total wreck. It's complete toast.

So thanks you guys. I thought I only had non-existent peeps, but it looks like there are one or two REAL LIVE PEOPLE out there too. I heart you guys.

Now excuse me while I check out the amazing new site that is blowing up online. Really, you need to check it out if you haven't yet. It's a whole other side to motherhood. So go, now, but don't forget to come back to meeeeeeeeeeeeee!

It's time for a little common sense

So, I pride myself on being extremely open-minded and non-judgmental. Especially when it comes to mothers and parenting, since I have no hands on experience. But something happened the other day that really got my goat (I have never understood that line, but hey, it works).

I went to Burlington to look for a present for some one. While I was there, I wandered around, because I love me some window shopping. I also love going to the baby section to look for little jewels to buy. I wandered for about a half hour looking at baby clothes, and as I was getting ready to leave the section I saw a shelf of clearance items way back behind all the baby strollers and bouncy chairs. (For those of you not familiar with this store, they set up all their baby strollers and cribs and infant car and bouncy sets. Much like Babies R Us, but more haphazard). I maneuver through all these bouncy chairs on the floor and as I made it up to the shelves, I knocked my foot against a chair and imagine my surprise when it made a noise! I look down and there is a one month old baby in a bouncy chair. I look around and see NO ONE. So of course I am going "hmmmmm". I go and walk down 4 aisles to the left and right and still see no one. So I walk back over to the baby and try to decide what to do. I want to find a store employee but I don't want to leave the baby. All that is running through my head is that someone has ABANDONED A BABY. I seriously stand there for about 7 minutes trying to decide if I should pick the baby up and go find the manager. Just then a employee walks by and I call her over. As I start to explain what has happened, I see a woman from the shower curtain aisle, which is ACROSS the store, walks out of the aisle with her choice of shower curtain in hand, strolls over to us, gives us a super dirty look, and picks up the baby. She then turns around and gives me the stink eye as she asks her baby how her nap was and walks away. The employee and I go errrrrr, what do we do now? She went and got her manager to talk to the woman, to be sure that she was the mom, which we are sure she was, but you can't be too careful.

I thought it then and I still think it, that woman did a bad thing. I don't judge moms and I know raising a child is hard. But, you do not go and put your baby somewhere in the store no where near you with NO ONE keeping an eye on the baby. Even if you put the baby where you might not immediately notice her. That baby was alone for over a half hour. I know this is Utah and where I live is like Mormon central, but that doesn't make it safe enough to do something like that. She also had a little boy, as I discovered as I saw her with him standing next to her as she was talking to someone (I think it was the manager) as I was walking out. Her little boy was the kid who had been running all over the whole store (and the store is pretty big) grabbing whatever he could and throwing it at people who walked by.

All I can keep thinking is, "Dude, you can't DO stuff like that. Do you not know what happens when you leave your kids unattended in public places? Especially an adorable little baby girl?" It still makes me upset and pissed when I think about this, because the woman was not acting responsible. I don't know the reason why she would leave her baby alone like that, but even if, say, the baby was taking a nap and was a light sleeper or something, that was still just being stupid and careless.

Ok, so maybe I am judgmental after all.

**Note, I had this posted as a draft for the last few days, debating on if I should post it or not, as I don't like talk/bash/comment on something that I might not know the whole story behind. But, in light of what is a huge story here I decided to post it. In our world today, to even let your child play outside out of sight has become a danger, to leave your infant unattended in a store blows my mind. There are so many sick people in the world who take what is not theirs, don't be careless and practically drop an opportunity in their lap. I feel for poor Destiny's parents, the last words they had with their little girl were not words of love and that can never be erased from their hearts. She was by her own home, why would they not think her safe? Please, be careful with your precious gifts, don't do stupid things like this woman at the store.**

Monday, July 24, 2006

Dude, Seriously

Hi God. I just wanted to drop you a line and ask you if you could maybe give my family a little bit of break. You have us hopping the last couple month's, and as grateful as we are that our trials have made us stronger, we wouldn't mind a breather. This whole thing you just threw at us, where you tried to take my 5 year old niece back, yeah, not cool. If you let us keep her for oh....Say....... 90 more years, we would REALLY appreciate it. So, not that I'm complaining or anything, but if you wanted to cut us a little slack, that would be wonderful.

Sincerely,
Rachael's slightly hysterical auntie.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

“Every man had his own quirks and twists”

As the first topic in the "All About Me" series, I would like to tell you about my little quirks.

-I don't drink bottom water. Bottom water is the inch or so left at the bottom of a cup. It can be water, juice, soda or milk. I will not drink that last little bit. It's just gross for some reason to me.

-I rock. Standing in line, I will rock or sway. Sitting down on the floor, I will rock my body. I can not sit or stand still.

-I am a public germaphobe. In public places I have to use antibacterial wipes and hand sanitizers on EVERYTHING.

-I will not go #2 unless I am at home. At work, a friends house or out to dinner, I will not do it. Only in my own home, in my own bathroom.

-I always hold my breath when driving past a cemetery. I don't when I go to a burial, but driving past one, I will hold my breath till I am blue in the face.

-I have to have every thing match. I can't handle mismatched things. This goes down to every little bottle and nicknack I own. All my spices, I have to take out of the container they came in and put them in glass containers that all match. All my lotions I buy? They all get squeezed into matching clear apothecary bottles and then labeled. Doesn't matter if it's a $4.00 lotion from Target or a $30.00 one from Sephora, they all must match.

-I won't drive behind or beside a motorcyclist. I just know if I did, the guy would fall off his bike and I would run right over him.

-I can only fall asleep with a fan running on high and the air down to 60, and a down comforter cuddle under and a heating pad to lay on. Even in the winter.

So there you have it, a few of the little odd habits I have. What about you, what quirks do you have that help make you, you?

Lets Talk About Me

A lot of the blogs I read have done the "100 Things About Me". I contemplated doing this, but a few factors helped me decide not to go this route. One is that most blogs that have done this did so back in 2004/2005. To do this now could become the same social faux pas as when you were in middle school and you finally convinced your mom to let you get your hair permed. You then find afterward that all the cool kids stopped doing that and that the shag was the new cool "do". Then you were stuck with a horrible hairstyle and all the cool kids pointing and giggling at you.
Another reason is as soon as I tell myself I need to come up with a 100 things about me, my mind goes blank. The pressure is just too much for me to handle. Most of the time, when I come across a 100 list, I don't even read through the whole thing unless the person is so witty and funny that I can't stop. I would hate to bore you like that, so instead I will every so often post a little "ditty" about me.

What shall I post about first? Good question! I'll let you know in a little bit!

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Guess Who’s Back, Back Again…….

…………….Hippster’s back, tell a friend!
Hello! Yes, I have not posted in a long while. But rest assured, I have composed wonderful posts in my head, which I will draft and publish at a later date. Thank you so much for your kind words. My brother is going to be ok, his liver is going to be a huge mess, but he’s alive and kicking. Out of respect to that fact that both my parents and brother are extremely private people and don’t feel comfortable about me talking to the “internet” about this, I will leave a lot of this situation out of my blog. Having said that, the last couple weeks have been so very rough for all of us in different ways and very emotional. I think that one of the biggest ones for me was this all consuming guilt that I didn’t see any signs, that I wasn’t there enough for him. I think that has been the leading emotion, along with my parents being very hurt, like they didn’t love him enough to stop this or something and that he just wants to be LEFT ALONE right now and not picked at over this. It’s a very tangled web of emotions.

The most important thing is he is going to be ok. Taking 4 bottles of sleeping pills can be pretty darn painful, but I’m grateful it was that and not a gun.

I end this with a quote direct from my brother:
“You know, the Psych ward REALLY does suck.”

Monday, July 03, 2006

My witty post is gone

I had written out what I thought was a wonderful, insightful and witty blog. Alas, my mom called with some upsetting news, so that post went out the window. I just don't have the heart to post it now. One of my little brothers, who is 20, is in the hospital right now. We don't know all the details yet, but it is apparently an attempted suicide. Needless to say, we are all really shaken up. He is away from the family for two years, so my mom is driving out of state to get to the hospital and find out more details. This is all the more shocking because out of all the kids, he seems the most stable, so to speak.

I know no one really knows about my blog, or my "other" blog, Tryin to be a Mommy, but if any of ya'll stumble this way, maybe keep a little prayer or happy thought for my family.

Thanks.
And little brother, just know that I love you so much. I'll be there in a couple days, just hold on for me, ok?